I hate myself.
I hate myself.
I hate myself.
I'm currently totally guilty of what I did yesterday morning. Or rather, what I did not do. This is what happened.
I got out of the lift, all set and ready to set off for school. Suddenly, i heard a loud shriek. I can swearI've never heard anything like it. I was caught by surprise. Immediately, i turned around to where i think the loud shriek came from. To my horror, i saw two cats- one infrotn of another. They are sort of chasing each other.
The first word that appeared in my mind when i saw that scene was to run away. And for your information, I've been sort of scared of cats since young and the sight of two cats running around chasing each other was just way too scary. I thought they were just playing with each other, as i have totally no idea how cats play. Little did i expect the cat that was chasing the cat infront of it actually pounced on the first cat and started scratching it.
I ran away. That was the first thing i did. I ran away. I was way to horrified about that scene that i have no idea how to act.
Awhile later, I heard a loud moan. It did not sound like a cat's meow. It's not a meow. It was a groan. I have heard of this kind of sound before. In the television shows and the movies i watch. It sounds just like a ghost's moan. Just scarier. Just more monster-like. I went back to the scene and saw a cat, the cat that was pounced on earlier, lying on the floor, in a pool of blood.
It was dying. It was moaning. The moan I've never in my life hear before(except in movies). I believe it's really in pain.
I'm really guilty. If only i had done something to stop the two cats from fighting. If only i did not run away. If only i had more courage. I could have saved a life! Even thought it's a cat. And I dont really like cats. But it's still a life! I could not believe i just let a being just die like that. A being died because of me. Because of me. I dont know why i did not do anything to save it. I really don't know why.
I did not see the cat die... I just saw the cat in great pain. In a pool of blood. I did not do anything to stop it from dying. Even simple things like asking people for help or just help it bandage the wound. I just let it bleed to death. I'm really guilty.
I'm sorry.
